Right now

Right now, I am...

/Excited for the future (2010).
//Excited by the word "rooibos".
///Wondering what the next "big thing" is going to be and how it will be used by several for its full potential and just-sorta-ruined by the other millions/billions of people who use it/watch it/eat it/propagate it.
////Excited for the chocolate chip cookies I am inevitably going to bake today.
/////Excited to rearrange my little living/bed room.
//////Kinda hungry.
///////Little bit of anxious.
////////But still mostly excited.

Hope this lasts.

I'm sorry I'm sometimes different.

I'm sorry I'm sometimes unconventional.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes silent.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes unhappy.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes excited.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes indecisive.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes irrational.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes curious.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes tangential.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes reclusive.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes lazy.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes indifferent.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes unresponsive.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes spiteful.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes perverted.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes stupid.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes ungrateful.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes talkative.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes boring.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes logical.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes condescending.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes narcissistic.
I'm sorry I'm sometimes different.

No progression.

Not feeling a sense of "progression" from point A to point B. Don't even know what point A was or point B will be. "My life" is unbalanced. My sleep is fragmented and scattered across the 24-hours called a day. I get no response, no feedback, no input, not enough at least. Should I "put myself out there" and hope for some sort of positive response from others?

Am I just at a low point in a large mood swing? The past would say yes and I should just "ride it out" until I feel better.

Words are not working for me. Music is not working for me. Interaction is not happening.

Been wearing the same clothes for days. They're comfortable. They're all I have to "wear".

Finished the B-sides playlist to the Cold Skies/Grey Weather playlist. Listening to it now. Dunno if it's B-side-ish enough. Has plenty of alt lo-fi tracks but so did the "real playlist" maybe I should've gone more mainstream with the B-sides.