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Making music is one of the most frustrating/confounding + least rewarding/attainable things I've ever tried to do. Am I not spending enough time "immersing" myself in this world/idea/acting of composing music, beats, tunes, melodies, things like that? Should I be drowning myself in it? Thinking maybe the "sink or swim" saying might apply to this and I'm just wading.

How do you find the tools to make the music you envision? Is limiting yourself to strictly "digital" or strictly "analog"/traditional instruments limiting yourself in creativity? Atm I only have digital means to produce music, but then again, am I not trying hard enough/searching for/exploring options? Do I need to get on my hands and knees and pound rhythms on the floor like "the cavemen" did before I can as they say evolve into a legitimate producer of noise?

How much unpublished/recorded music have visionaries/geniuses/pioneers composed that was no good? Did it take years or were they naturally "good"/pioneers? Even instant successes that aren't "good" like Wavves or any of the one hit wonders must've spent energy on something. Are does success sometimes come from nothing, if you're in "the right place at the right time?"

Where should I put my energies? What is most likely to become a marketable/successful endeavor that will bring me the attention I crave? Should I decide and then pour all my time/energy/effort/money/strategy/networking into a single bucket and hope for "The Best"?

How can I improve my individuality? Why does the word "individuality" have the word "duality" in it?