Fewer thoughts than normal lately

Been consumed by music, I don't know if that's a good thing. My laptop hard drive is almost full, I need to do some cleaning and put the stuff I don't listen to very much into my external hard drive. Going to save that for another day though.

Recently read about Zachary German's forthcoming novel Eat When You Feel Sad and think, "Why am I not writing my novel?" so I opened my rich text file and began revising what I'd written so far. Edited one sentence. Got interrupted. Was gonna go back and edit/write more but I decided to blog.

Wanting to "publish" a playlist I made earlier this month but I don't wanna do the work to organize it into a "real playlist" so I may just upload it as a grab bag of tracks I like. Would like to feel like at least one person would download it and enjoy it before I go to any sort of work to upload it.

Birthday tomorrow. I expect ~6 birthday texts. Any more and I'll be upset or disappointed. Any less and I'll be relieved or disappointed. Don't feel like I have anything to celebrate this year. Maybe next year will be better. As it stands, 19-20 has been a year of transition, with no "real accomplishment" as I see it, more like trying to get comfortable+steady+on my feet with some reclusion that isn't really a good thing to be happening but it is anyway.

Wondering what my "barrier" is.